Mom – yes. Crazy – yes. Lesbian – yes. So let’s define some things.
Mom: I gave birth to my daughter BoomBoom in January, 2013 after 9 months of IUIs and many years beforehand of cutting back meds etc to get ready for pregnancy.
Lesbian: Easy definition. I am a woman who likes other women. In fact, I’m married to the most gorgeous and amazing woman I have ever met, and I’m incredibly lucky.
Crazy: I call myself crazy because I’ve struggled with depression for the better (worse) half of my life. Like not just your “normal” depression, but your institutionalized, heavily medicated depression. The kind where they keep you in isolation on suicide watch, and when they don’t know what to do with you anymore, they shock your brains out with way too much Electro-Convulsive Therapy.
Now before you send the social workers, hear me out – I’m better. I haven’t had a depressive episode in years. I still take medication for my mental health, but I did everything I could to be able to carry a baby safely and my baby turned out perfectly.
My name is Lex. My partner is Devon. I have wanted a baby for as long as I remember. Like since I was three years old. I’ve wanted to carry a child in my belly. I get those crazy hormonal urges where my belly literally aches to be filled. My greatest fear is to wake up when my eggs are old and realize I’ve missed out on the most important gift of my life.
So, this blog is a place where I will be writing about my journey to become a mother: From how it affects my marriage, my health, my family, my baby’s health, my community, and the rest of my life.
Update July 2013: I am now a crazy lesbian mom who has just been diagnosed with stage IV colon cancer. Not that I really want to make this a TTC mental health LGTB mommy cancer blog… but sometimes life gives you a weird combination of things.
Feel free to email me at crazylesbianmom(@)gmail(dot)com